This Week #1

This week has been a real mixed bag. I've been everything and nothing. Introvert and extrovert. 

Monday through Wednesday was great, my head was full with new ideas, goals and desires. I was able to accomplish a lot - my writing progressed immensely! I clear my head and even spent an evening with some friends. All of which felt great!

Towards the second half of the week I think I lost my footing a little. My judgement became clouded and my self awareness wasn't what I hoped it would be. A few lousy nights of little sleep didn't aid me, at all.

Sometimes, my perfectionism is detrimental and becomes a more self destructive than anything else.

Now, that's not to say the end of this week was a total flop. I spent Friday in Leeds with my younger sister. I'm glad she's got her priorities right, she's smart and has the whole world ready for her, just as she is.

In a little under two weeks my Dad and I are taking the weekend to visit some family in Italy. I'm hopeful this will be a chance for me to gain a little headspace and surround myself with humbling souls.

This week's teaching: "Are you scared? Or are you not ready? There's a difference."

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Pick Me Ups

A list of things that feel good:

• Having your class cancelled on a beautiful day. 
• Laughing so hard your face hurts. 
• Watching a child do something for the first time. 
• A great idea. 
• Getting mail. 
• Walking out of your last exam. 
• Seeing hard work pay off. 
• Your favourite lunch.
• Clean laundry.
• Being told you did an excellent job.
• A care package. 
• Student discount. 
• A crisp white shirt.
• Seeing how happy your dog is when you take him for a walk.
• An unexpected gift. 
• Walking barefoot in the sand. 
• Taking uncomfortable shoes off.
• Singing in public and hearing a stranger say “You *GO* girl!” 
•  Landing on the runway after a long flight. 
• An almost dangerous sense of determination. 
• Feeling needed.
• The ability to listen.
• Compassion. 
• Travelling.
• Writing something you're proud of.
• Smiling at strangers and getting smiles in return.
• Wide open spaces.
• Knowing that we live in a world where most things are just a phone call away.
• Snacking when you get home late. 
• Latte art.
• Being with someone you love when you need each other.
• The smell of the first bbq of summer.
• A sleep in the afternoon after a big meal. 
• Making use of the whole day. 
• Watching a black and white film.
• Eating food you grew yourself. 
• The first warm summer days.
• Being brave enough to stand by your decisions.
• Waking up next to someone you love. 
• The smell of freshly cut grass.
• Knowing that all is well.
• Finding a starfish at the beach. 
• The sound of wind in the trees. 
• The sound of the ocean at high tide.
• Meeting new people and having them become good friends faster than you thought possible. 
• Finding common ground with someone you were unsure about.
• Knowing and feeling that some person really likes you as you are.
• When the weather is just warm enough for you to eat outside.
• Listening to the falling rain drops. 
• Watching the dew drops on flower petals early in the morning. 

Keep a look out for Pt. 2!

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Dear March...

It's nice to see you. Spring has sprung and you have a hefty example to set. I encourage you to suffice.

Thank you for bringing the time where the clocks whiz forward and the light lasts a little longer. If that's something that could be arranged all year round that would be delightful. You're still a little chilly and the possibility of snow isn't too appealing to me, but if you could bring some sunshine and a little warmth I'd be eternally grateful.

You're a longer month than February and I hope to fill you with productivity and happiness, much like the previous two have allowed me. I'm enthralled for the new possibilities you bring. Celebration, family, love and a whole heap of laughter.

Let's go.

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